Yes, I've made mistakes. Life doesn't come with instructions.<3

 

cant sleep

for one of the first times i finally gave in and started to really talk to a guy. i opened up trusted him and started to really like him. he told me he felt the same way, he told me he saw a future with me and everything. but it was all to good to be true. he told me he wants to keep talking but if i was looking for a relationship then he wasnt the guy for me. all i could think was are you stupid why would i continue to talk to you, all that would happen is my feelings would grow even more but our relationship would always stay the same. its either get hurt now or get hurt later. i pick now, yeah i like him and care about him but it will hurt a lot less now. i hate when people let their past effect their future.  this is just gods way of telling me hes not the one. all part of his plan, he wasnt the first guy and defiantly wont be the last. just have to keep telling myself everything happens for a reason and if its meant to be then it will happen.